homerton 4 hours

i am mentally out but physically still working a little bit.. last night, went to watch Wicked with Bao.. quite a nice story.. but the music i feel it is so so only lar.. but the theatre is beeg and nice!! classy! i like it~ hah... by the time it was already about 11pm.. then I tailed Bao home, to watch Heroes.. hah..wohoo.. Bao was the one who surrendered first... at 6am~ quite cool lar.. we went through 7 episodes.. then she slept for an hour.. while i watch Survivor Cook's Island finale.. then I dragged her out to go to Mac for breakfast with me.. haha.. paiseh ar!! Audrey you are lucky.. i was about to scream outside your door but since you have work I will let you off this time :)


then i went to the interpreting job at Homerton.. wah lao.. so far away... and I was in the hospital for 4 Solid Hours.. my eyes are very small already.. they are about 1mm now.. waited at this antenatal clinic with this woman and her 3.5 years old daughter for super long.. test after test.. BP too high so gotta check here check there... and they are sooo slow... I end up playing with the little girl.. hah.. quite funny.. the mom was doing so test and the girl wanna shi-shi.. so the mommy told me to take her.. ok fine no problem.. so we got to the loo... the toilet bowl so big the girl so tiny.. so i carried her up.. cannot sit cos she will fall in.. and there is this gap in the front of the sit... so i let her stand on the toilet bowl she doesnt know how to shi-shi squatting down.. then she wont shi-shi.. i had to ask a nurse to help.. felt quite stupid.. hah.. never taken a little girl to toilet before... haha.... at least i learnt something todae!! haha :)


In the labour ward for quite a while today... wah all these mommies-to-be... stomach so beeg... they all looked so stress and uncomfortable.. no matter standing, sitting or lying down.. some were lucky... they have their husband with them.. others with their own moms... men these days har.. i know have to work to earn money... but your wife is having a baby! you are going to be a father.. cant you be off for a day at least to be your wife... goodness do you know how much pain she is going through?!!! haiz!! soo useless!! @.@''' i understand that the father cant really do much at that moment.. but being there.. the support!! lousy men!!! ~~

Antenatal clinic is such a busy department.. you see pregnant moms with little kids... cant help wondering... can they really manage all of them? hah... but then you see the smiles on their faces.. the look these couples give to each other... they look happy, sweet and in love.. for now at least~~ which is good!! haha...

haiz.. i think i should go continue with Heroes.. 10 more episodes to go... though it is really not very good.. still i want to finish it.. haha.. wish I had brought home the tortalli now.. i m starving... haha....

Many people ask why I like to watch TV so much..
The reason is because on TV..
no matter what twists and turns in the stories..
it is always happy ending in the end...

If only it is the same in real life..
Everyone around me is happily ever after...
Everyone I love is happy..
Everyone who loves me is happy...
then.. it will be perfect~~ ^.^

曾经有人说过, 时间能让治疗悲痛..


时间的确能让伤口变得模糊, 但却无法除掉那深深的疤痕.
我们都会用尽办法把伤疤给盖住.. 衣服, 头发..

Out of Sight, Out of Mind~


可是当衣服不小心被大风掀开,
丑陋的疤痕有再一次出现在眼前..
顿时间, 一切回忆又涌到眼前...
这时我们才发现,
其实我们什么都没有忘记.

220507

hello everybody!! haha... must be wondering what I am up to recently.. exam over for four days already but I havent updated my blog yet... life after exam is chillzzz.. haha.. ever since i put myself into bed on fridae.. i never realli got up.. except to eat and to bath... i even put a chair next to the bed so i can put my laptop on..!! haha.. a bit extreme..

so.. lehh... what haf i been doing..? watch tv.. eat ... sleep ... watch tv... 24hrs a day.. my eyes are going to pop out soon.. if only i can haf so much interest and determination when i study... if only... so haf i chosen the wrong thing? should i be studying media instead? at least i will be doing smth i am interested in~~ oh well... its too late now... no turning back...

anyway.. the shows i have watched.. survivor cook's island.. erh except for 3 episodes.. including finale..!!! the webisite i am using doesnt haf it.. but i know the result.. yul won... harvard student.. yale law student.. no wonder so smart.. his dad was refugee.. so wow.. well done to him!! thumbs up!! his family must be so proud of him!!

another show is 想飞.. 玮伦's last complete show.. was waiting for exams to be over to start... well.. something that will stay in my heart for a while.. not exactly an extremely wonderful show.. but something to be remembered.. then there is the usual bangbangtang and kangxi and etcetc.. after writing this.. i might to continue with my kung2 that i stopped since dunno when... and waiting for next episode of veronica mars to come out!! finale of the season!!! oh i watched a movie too... spider lilies... er... finished the whole day without understanding what on earth the movie is trying to say... so.. CRAP!!!

ohhh.. i am also reading angels and demons... sigh.. dont really understand all the physics.. tian ar.. tough!!! i am quite proud of myself.. apart from that expensive dinner on fridae.. i havent spent a single cent!!! the idea of staying at home so i wont spend money is working so well!!

at this moment .. i am supposed to be on holiday... in venice.. or milan. the money i have wasted.. still cannot get over it! i still cant believed my friends went.. ok.. people think differently.. cannot force them... they have no backbone is their problem.. sigh~~~

been thinking a lot lately.. about life.. about me... and about MY life.....
sometimes i wonder.. do i think too much?

记忆能让人留住最美丽的画面,

却也可能是永远抹不掉的烙印.

*hooo~* last paper in 4 hours' time.. yea finallie finishing... then 3 more weeks before results... 3 weeks to pray for a miracle to happen :)... watever it is.. this will be my last time complaining about this whole exam thing.. pass or fail.. worst come to worst.. no summer no singapore no pkk and staying in london alone for resits... thats the worst... i am mentally prepared.. or will be in 3 weeks' time... but that doesnt mean i have given up hope.... there is still a chance! :) for now.. just hope todae's paper will be easy so i can have spare marks to transfer..!!! [if necessary!]... i did smth stupid last night.. watched tv instead of revising! hah.. but that made me happy thou!! which is good good good!!! life is all about being happy and forgetting all the negative happenings.. haha.. wish that is what life is all about!!!! :)

less than 2 hours left before MCQ... i feel like i have already lost... the more i try to study... the more i will find out that there are so many mistakes i have made in those questions on mondae.. those that i thought were correct... and 75% for this paper? i think i will get 10%...... nothing looks good... nothing...

3rd day

today was multiple GUESSING questions... not joking.. i seriously have no clue to a lot of the questions.. oh well.. but i m not as worried about this as MEQ... althought 2 days have past... i cant help but still think about it.. i knew how to do the at least 2 of the neuro questions.. the cerebral artery one and although i dont know the syndrome but i know how to answer most part of the other pathway question too.. but i didnt have time for them.. instead... i spent time on stupid anat questions which i have realised my answers are wrong... sigh.... am i going to pass? >.<

second day done! huuu... todae marh.. better than yesterdae.. not in the sense the i have done well but i actually have time to think and finish the paper.. oh well.. first two are over... not point thinking about them anymore... study for tmr anat lor.. sigh! i hope i can do some questions tmr..

good luck everyone!!!! HUG

first paper done... big sigh.. relieve one is down.. but on the other hand.. i didnt finish the paper again! its like last year.. last may.. i didnt finish it as well.. but this year.. at least for those that i have done i am quite sure of them... let say if i get 70% for half.. i need 30% which is 6 marks from each of the rest of the questions to pass.. but i left two completely empty.. except for the four words.. amoxicillin and blood brain barrier.. so then for the rest.. need to compensate 10 more marks in them... that means 6 questions need to get 6X6+10=52.. each question need 8.5 marks.. omg... and this is on the account that i get 70% for the other half.. omg... i m worried.. stressed.. lost.. i realli dont want to XXXX again.. my whole summer will be gone.. and worst.. i studied this time and if i still fail.. that reflects incapablility instead of lack of revision.. and the chore of having to restudy everything away.. the thought of it makes me sick... i hope they modulate a bit.. 5 marks is better than nothing... ok.. let say if i can transfer 5%.. which should really save for MCQ1.. but anyway.. 5% out of 360 means 18 marks.. which means i need to get 34 marks for the 6 hundang questions.. which means 6 marks each.. this is not good.. i just hope that luck will strike.. for this once.. then i promise i will study clinics stuff in summer.. read the whole yellow and green book before hand.. on the good side.. one paper is down.. 4 more to go.. retake or not.. i will only know in a month's time.. so i should kick it out of my mind now.. take a break.. and prepare for tmr...

revision count down 2 days

wohoo... todaeis fridae... and two more days and it will be mondae.. exams time! and then five more days exams will be over.. hm... um... should i be excited? happy? nervous? stress? i dont feel anything atm.. soo numb lor! hah.. so eh.. thinking is by limbic system.. so my limbic system dysfunction? woah~

sorrie writing crap.. but seriously! am i going to make it? study this and forget others.. limiting brain capacity... i need an extra brain!! pinkie, can lend me urs? hah.. but still.. 2 more days.. study lorz.. processing very slowly this week.. spent so much time listening to dennis and watching tv... while i should be mugging 15 hours a day like charles..

only time i m out of the house these days is to buy Mac or BK or to the library.. ha.. saw a little boy.. not little.. teenager lar.. sec/high sch.. running along the street yesterdae on my way back from library.. how i wish i m him! at the age when i can still wake up every morning.. breakfast prepared for me.. put on my sch uniform.. then go to sch.. is this why grandma always says being a student is the best time in life?

i like studying.. thou i grumble.. and i complain.. a lot! haha. but since easter till now.. this is prob the time i haf worked the hardest for an exam... and i m acutalli enjoying it.. quite unbelievable! pharm is full of ridiculous names but i like it.. anat is like learning a new language but i guess once you memorise all the names u will be fine.. ... hah.. so glad we dont haf much biochem nor all those funnie pathology Ig thing this year.. horrible stuff.. if only.. there is no pass or fail.. then med sch will be wonderful~~

dear medics.. work hard lor.. if u feel stress or upset or wanna gif up.. just think yar.. if this will bring you to where you wan to go in the end... then it is all worth it.. and then try to enjoy every bit of this journey.. cos u can only walk thru this path once.. before you reach your goal.. when u will think back and regret why you didnt make ur journey more memorable and remarkable.. dragging urself out of bed knowing that it is another day of hard core revision ahead sucks i know.. but just a bit more ya!! -smile-

"屁!!" :P

"是上只有妈妈好, 有妈的孩子没烦恼..."

我想每个人小时候都有听过这首歌吧...

一首赞颂母爱的歌曲...

哈, 可是我从小就很讨厌这歌..

有妈妈就能万事通...

那.. 人人都有妈...

你和我的烦恼有是哪来的呢?

特别是每当我和妈妈吵架时..

外婆总会说... '她都是为你好...'

而我的回答永远是一个字..

"屁!!" :P

五月的第二个星期天是母亲节...

媒体朋友们必定有会大肆报道...

母爱的伟大...

听到很多很多妈妈的好话....

感人肺腑的勒.. 0.0

可是, 为什么...

关于母亲伤害孩子的新闻总是被忽略..

今天香港的新闻: 爭吵後縱火　狂婦燒死孝順女

大人们啊...

这不是自打嘴巴吗?

很讽刺吧!

幼稚园的老师们...

下次当年再唱妈妈好的时候...

想想这则新闻吧~~

世事无绝对喔!!　　＾．＾