Sunday 11th Feburary 2007. How time flies, its 2007 already. Its been 3 years since I came to this country. 3 years. Already.

minnie was out the whole day today. so spent a bit of time with gary. watching movies and tv series. felt so weird. when minnie is around, we dont even talk to each other much other than the hi-byes and how are u. since last year, there has been this invisible awkwardness between us. why do we have to act so differently with or without the existence of minnie? i swear there is nothing going on between gary and i. but yet there is something. maybe i m the one to blame for this. when minnie is in the house, i will stay in my room and avoid talking to them. i feel quite uncomfortable when i am alone with them now. but when minnie is out, gary will come into my room and chat or i will go hang out in the living room. why? i actually feel guilty talking to gary behind minnie's back. i am not doing anything wrong, am i?

easter holiday is coming, i m a bit worried. cross-fingers the same thing wont happen again, please! i hate misunderstandings, that's wat tear people apart...

on saturday night i heard the bitchi-est conversation ever. minnie and her friend, karen who has come down from Bristol to visit were in the living room chatting while i was trying desperately to repair the stupid internet. guess what i overheard.

'OMG! she is so ugly and short, why would anyone want to be friend with her?' 'all my friends are pretty, i just cant help it.' *sneers*

all girls bitch to a certain extent, to the least talk to their friends about people around them. i admit i do bitch about people too. but -erp- ugly and short? as if they are very tall, minnie not even 155cm, and she is commenting about how short others are? we are not in primary scho anymore.. what kind of people am i living with? the tone in their voice was just... sign.. unbelievable.. -eye-opener-

sometimes, i wan to go back being a fresher,

when my room was like a mini-common room,

when everyone would gather in my room after dinner and chat until 1am,

when there was so much laughter and love,

when so many would come to tell us how they wish they were in our little Camden family,

i miss the Camden gang!

but i guess, we can never be the same again,

expiry date of friendship,

友情的有效期,

anyone care telling me?
i really need to know!

某人, 和我曾是好朋友, 自从交了男朋友之后, 就消失了

现在她大概把我给忘了!

我不能理解, 也不能体谅.

友情就此告终.

同样的故事重复发生

教会了我, 即使我把她们当成好友, 但人家也不一定要收啊!!

有点失望, 有点失落, 可是习惯就好~

another who i used to hang out with everyday after school.. has gone wrong too..

i still remember, one day in feb last year we went shopping for gary and minnie's bdae present,

everything was fine! very high shopping trip,

then the next day, he wouldnt speak to me anymore,

Until now, I still dont know why?

Thou we still talk to each other now on msn,

but.. sigh...

人与人的关系, 真的...
无可预计!

3年来我领悟到了一样东西, 这世界上没有一个人是不重色轻友的.

就算在单身时给你一百个承诺不会忘掉你,

可是到头来又成了一个谎言.

有点失望, 有点失落, 可是习惯就好~

这就是我对自己的忠告...